Defining Dyslexia

I have dyslexia.
It is complicated but a simple way to put it is my mind is deaf.
I hear fine with my ears, but in my mind I can't understand
I hear words and repeat and understand but I can't read and repeat,
My mind can't tell the sounds and letters apart.
I can't read aloud a word I have never heard spoken before,
I hate those words, those words I can't make understood.
The slightest change in a word makes a sound that I can't hear.
Why can't my mind be normal?
Someone once said that being normal is overrated.
Spoken like someone never the victim of middle school girls
Chasing you over the play ground shouting "Retard!"

I hate the words that mark me, the ones I can't define
Words with a silent "e" or "i" or some other letter I can't hear
I hate them because they always come out wrong
Peace comes out piece, violent and wrong
Either comes out ether, dragging things into the dark
I hate those words that mean more then one thing
"Board" doesn't mean "bored"
"There" doesn't mean "their"
I stumble over these words while they mock me
I hate words ending with "-tion" or "-sion"
Because I never know which is which.

I hate them because I feel they are yelling "Retard!" too
I am NOT a retard.
I learn slower than most people,
But I do learn.
I like to learn.
Maybe I don't hate words
Just the way they never come out right,
But I guess that's not their fault.
So, I don't hate words.
Except "Retard"
I hate that.